Keep dreaming of myself driving a new car...

I just can't put my dream aside. There's no way to shake it off. Cars are all around me. Ever since I was a child, I dreamt of driving cars. Now I got my license, I've my car...that doesn't mean anything for me. I can't enjoy driving very much these days. There are so many things to worry about. Money is the problem that I concern upfront. I don't have money to fix my car even it's having problem. Coolant is leaking quite frequently due to the broken hard-opening of the radiator. At least 2 shocks have already gone, shock cannot be absorb. And squeaky sound comes out whenever there're bumps. Turbo is leaking somewhere I believe. I've tighten all the rubber hoses already. Still can't solve the problem. Oh well as long as my car is rolling, I won't think about spending even a penny on fixing. My car had enough operations. If she dies on me, I'd not think about her anymore. Back to my new car dream. Lately I've been having different dreams about my future furious rides. I really don't know why car becomes part of my life. It's more than a girlfriend for me even I don't have one...>_<""" I want a reliable car that would not break down easily. And have some capabilities for weekend regional races. Money money and money...when will money come to me...someone please give me a reliable car. On the other hand, my current car is automatic. It's absolutely my fault to get an automatic car. People often say, what's wrong with automatic. Actually there's nothing wrong. But it's not fun. Driving for me is not just for transportation. It's also a joy for me. It's just too ordinary and not technical to drive an automatic car. Especially people call me car freak...well I'm not qualify to be named as a "car freak". I know that I don't have too much knowledge about cars. However, I have great love and passion for car, there's no doubt about it. Lastly, I hope my car will not break until I get another one...That's my only wish for now. I don't expect my next car would be a Ferrari. I wish everyone who read this message would understand my suitation and give love to your car(s) from now on.