1st Oct, 2005: Alfredo Rush

One simple good meal can rejuvenate me (my body). I want my simple meal to be perfect. That's why I wanted to get the best ingredients possible to achieve the goal. I even went to the grocery store and did comparison on different products. I just can't wait to make my homemade thick and saucy alfredo fettucine. Not sure why I'm feeling a little down. I didn't play well tonight in practice. I got too many things up in my head. Coach didn't pay attention to me at all...I don't really care now either..so be it. I'd go somewhere and find a better coach. Lately, I've been worrying about what would really happen in the coming few months. Either I could stay in the US or just go back to where I'm from. Nothing's up to me. I can't really decide where and who to work for. I don't have any company in mind yet. I just don't see myself going anywhere. I'm pretty much like a blind person running in a maze.