3rd Dec, 2005: Confused and lost...

I waited for my guitar to arrive this morning from 9:30 until 11:35...guess what. I didn't see any Fedex truck come by. So I waited for nothing. A friend of mine from Mount Carmel came by with a bunch of Korean. It's pretty weird to have strangers around. But it's okay. We had lunch and walked around the campus. After that I went to pingpong practice as usual. I played terrible today. When I say terrible, I'm saying missing 5-6 serves in a game, loop every ball out of the table (way off..). Part of it is because I am not practicing during the week like I used to. Well well well...I always got excuse. Why shouldn't I just say, I suck..today is one of those days when I don't want to play anymore after seeing myself got beaten up. I've no complaint at all, as my skill level is not above any of the players that I played with. When I came back, I can't believe I took my penhold blade out and thought about using it again. This time I won't. I'll stick with what I got and be satisfied with it. I'll just pay less attention to it. Lately, I've been pulled myself too much into pingpong and expected too much from myself. I better learn from my mistakes everytime I play. I believe if I can make less mistakes each time. I would improve quicker...I really missed the practices that my ex-coaches gave me. I can't get any of those practice anywhere. I heard a romantic love song in VH1. It's "Ordinary People" by John Legend. I listened to it over and over again. I like the melody of that song. It's so pure with just piano and vocal. I'm in love with it.