29th July, 2004: Took my soul away

Alright this thing stressed me out for long time. I was so sad that it happened.
I didn't sleep for some reason last night. Actually there's no reason. But I didn't sleep. Oh I think because I was too hungry so I couldn't sleep in. I went to Dunkin' Donuts and got a free coffee and a dozen of donuts
That's right a dozen. I finished 6 already. It's really nice I got coupons. I just paid $4.13 taxed.
This thing took my soul away. The lugnuts were extremely tight. I successfully changed 3 wheels for the first time. The last one at the front driver side was really tight. I spent extra time on that. Finally here you go, the pictures for the new rims. Thank you dad! I'll take good care of the new ones
My car is too high for those rims as you can see. But the tires are great. What I mean great is grippy, stable and surprisingly quiet!!! My arms and palms are so sore now. I'm so so tired. I'd have a good sleep tonight.

28th July, 2004

I packed some more stuff today. There's nothing to eat in my apartment now. I'm always hungry. Basically I spent all day on MTV. The Jim Shearer Summer Gig is really cool. I like it. It's showing concerts on TV. That's what I wanted all the time. I think I've experience in moving and packing. I can handle better this time.

27th July, 2004: Less than 2 week from now

The wheels may arrive today. I'm looking forward to install and test it. Besides that, I'm starting to pack up my stuff and prepare to move to SIU which is 200 miles away. It's pretty easy to get there. I can just stay on I-57 south and make a change on 13 west. I'll have to drive 2 times back and forth to finish moving. So at least 3 times back and forth, because before I move I'll have to find my future apartment. School year is going to start soon. I'm getting excited but not scare. I believe I can improve. Well...still too early to say so. None the less it's my life, I know what I want to be. Peace out.

24th July, 2004

I went to see the "I, Robot" today. It was an awesome movie. Quite futuristic with adventurous story. Will Smith is famous for his humor. He acted funny in that movie. Make sure check out this movie. You don't want to miss it. It's the best movie for the summer yet. I had my dinner in McDonald's. I had a Big Mac Meal and a side order of 6 pcs Chicken McNuggets. I ate them all in about 15 mins before the movie. I was in a rush so...... I bet tonight I'd be hungry again

23rd July, 2004

After all the frustration from last night......
I bought this pair of shoes today. My Nike shoes is hurting my toes and my Esprit shoes is almost worn out. So I decided to get a a pair of new shoes today. I was looking at some other brands, like NB, Axis, Adidas... None of those caught my eyes. This shoes has a clean and smooth look. I can match that with my jeans. I'll take good care of it.

20th July, 2004: Unfinished dream

Today I had a dream when I was taking a nap. It's about me going back to Hong Kong for this Summer vacation. My family gathered together finally after 2 years. I was really happy in my dream. I told everyone that I'm home, I'm home, I'm in Hong Kong. I ordered the strawberry iced frappucino. One for my sister, one for myself. I wish I could stay lost in that dream for the whole summer.   I ordered a set of wheels package last night. I'd have to add $50 more dollars for the 2-day air delivery. So I'd rather wait for a week. For this time, I better avoid driving to anywhere.   Sweet dreams everyone!!!

19th July, 2004

I couldn't sleep all night. My legs were cramping...I felt really bad. I felt cold and I couldn't even stand up...now I'm fine.   I went to the tire shop today. They said they cannot fix this kind of alluminum wheel. Also if they order one, it won't be the same. It'd damage the differential since it's not the same one.  I'll discuss this with my family and see what's the best way to deal with this. It involves money again...   Sorry      

18th July, 2004: Crap happened

The concert in Evansville was great. One of the cover bands was pretty funny and cool. It's a mixture of heavy metal and Jamican music. I love Sevendust. They really rock. Especially the drummer. He threw the drummer sticks to the audience while he was playing and the audience threw it back to him. It was so cool!!!   Well...xhit happened tonight. I went on a bump while I was driving. It's a big one. That broke my tire, plus the wheel was bent. I don't know what to do now. Since the wheel is aftermarket wheel and I don't think I can find the exact same one out of any store....hm...frustrating..   God bless me and you all.

17th July, 2004

I think I better either go out to eat or get grocery and cook. I'm not eating like everybody else. Probably because I don't want to eat out alone. Plus I'm lazy to do the dishes and cook. It's becoming a serious problem for me. I've to adjust it and start to eat regularly.   I don't sleep until 5 am and wondering around. I should change that too.  I think tonight would be a good start. Go to bed early, get up tomorrow and eat. Then drive down to Evansville, IN to see Sevendust's live performance. I'd drive back after the concert. It might be little late. Hopefully everything would be in order like I planned.   New day, new hope and new dreams tomorrow!!

9th July, 2004

I had headache all day long. I watched a few of my music live DVDs. My sister a.k.a. "Flora" has already left Calgary, Canada heading toward Hong Kong. Mom and Dad miss them so much. When will I go back home...anyways..Bless her to have a safe flight. Jackie Chan was on Carson Daily's show on NBC. It's my first time to see Jackie being in a talk show on US TV. ha...the host and audience were so quiet whenever Jackie talks. Jackie mispronouced the word "host" as "hoes"...It was a little bit embarrasing. But I understood what he means. Nobody blames him because of that. In the show, Jackie said he wants to be a real movie star rather than an action star. I'm proud of him!!! Good Luck Jackie, we all support you.

6th July, 2004

My computer is totally messed up. I restore everything back to the original Windows ME. Problem didn't fix. I've to pray for my computer and hope it gets well sometime. Everything that I have is broke...Plants, car, computer...I don't think this is fair.

3rd July, 2004: My life is ruined

I truely believe my life is ruined by myself from the past year. It's so critical and important for me. However I ruined myself with my bare hands. All the time and money that spent was a waste. It's gameover already. Should I think about going back home? What should I do? A little more than a month later I'll have to move no matter what. What am I going to go? I don't know...everything is so unclear. I cannot see any path that I can go. Everybody's doing alright except me. I can't stand no more. I'll breakdown. I'm so empty. I don't even know what my dream is.